NOTICE!
I'm getting a new account.
Why?
Because I can.

& I want a new one for some reason. 

So yeah

I think I'm going to spend New Years Eve in LA
& just go for one night.
With Taylor.
Should I?
To see Traci, aka my animal?
=/

[	Mood	|	crazy	]
[	Music	|	Seether - Broken (feat. Amy Lee)	]

So, today was interesting at the very least.
Only 10 people showed up at school today. Me, Shane, Anthony, Rob, Ryan, Matt, Kristyn, Josh, Mary and Lindsay. Group sucked because everyone wanted me to talk that day. & by 'everyone' I mean Carol, Josh, and Kristyn. So I did. Pretty boring but we got out 5 minutes before we were suppose to. After school, my dad came and picked me up and we went to my eye doctors opointment and I got a new prescription & ordered my glasses. Fun, fun, fun. Then we went to Randhurst Mall (aka nothing) and went to Lenscrafters so I could get a 'temporary' pare of glasses that kick more ass than my older ones.
( newer ones )
I can see!!!! Then we mosied around Spencer's Gifts for a little while to see what they had left. The store is closing so everything right now is 30%-off and body jewelery is 50%-off. I bought a 'WWCND?' hat for my brother since we have a joke about Chuck Norris and Dan Smiley together. Then after that I decided "Hey, I need a job, god damnit!" So I walked over to the other side of the mall to Wurks, a pretty cool alternative store that my accuaintance, Gabby's friend, Eric, owns in two locations, but 4 different stores. He owns The Wurks & X-it, both are in Randhurst and Golf Mill. But only I work at Randhurst and Kim Heroin works at the one in Golf Mill. So I applied. 2 hours later at home I have 3 missed calls and 2 new voice messages, which both prove to be useless, and they're from the manager of the store. =] Tomorrow at 5:30PM! Yaaaaay!

[	Mood	|	depressed	]
[	Music	|	Love Ride: Ashton & Demi	]

Today was a total blur.  I didn't go to school because I didn't fall asleep until 3.  I was so depressed I couldn't fall asleep.  This whole season just makes me sick.  I hate it.  Everywhere I go, I see a candy cane.  Which reminds me of, of course, Traci.  Damn candy canes.  This is probably the most "productive" thing I've done all day.  Other than watching The Girls Next Door.  I makes me want to be a Bunny even more. Hahaha...  It's pretty funny.  Not the point, I'm just bored, so, yeah.  I don't know.  I'm done with this, whole, thing, this.  ew.


{("What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas.  Unless it's on TV, then I guess we're screwed.")}

[	Mood	|	depressed	]
[	Music	|	Sisters of Mercy - Cry, Little Sister	]

Well today was fun, i guess.
I continualy tried to see like i have been for the past 4 days.
Okay, I'm currently watching RAW and DX is getting their asses kicked.  It hurts to watch.  Team RKO just did the same thing to Triple H that they did to Rick Flair 2 weeks ago.  This is really disturbing for me.  Not the point.  We watched 'Take The Lead' in school today.  It was alright, i didn't pay attention though because I I've already seen it.  So me Ryot, Dana, Heather & Evan just played with floam the whole time.  Floam rocks.  If you don't know what it is then Google it.  & then go out and buy some because it's very amusing.  I fell asleep in the cab again, but at least the guy knew where he was going this time.  When I got home if found out something about my dog, Libby Lu.  She has this really rare skin/mouth disease that only about 3 dogs, on average, in the world get each year.  It's called Bullous Pemphigoid.  this is a part from the informational sheet they gave my mom.  
"The disease appears in the mouth and the junctions of skin and mucous membranes around the mouth, vulva, anus, and penis.  The disease may also appear in the skin under the front and back legs and the footpads.  Skin changes include fluid-filled blisters, erosions, and ulcerations.  It's a serious disease and may be fatal.  The treatment is often difficult and may require large doses of steroid drugs (cortisone).  Some affected dogs also need powerful anti-cancer drugs (kemo therapy).  Treatment is usually required for long periods of time and sometimes for life."
Yeah.
So, thats what my Lu-Lu has.  
I'm really worried for her.  When I found out about it, I started crying & then Libby came up to me and licked the tears off my face.  She is such a good dog, I don't want to see anything bad happen to her.  Its bad enough that she had to live with my dad in that dump for most of her life.  I'm gonna go lay down now.  With my dog.  And possibly pet her.

[	Mood	|	pissy	]
[	Music	|	Amanda Perez - God Send Me An Angel	]

I am officially fucked.
Why you may ask?
Well if you read my last post, you know that my glasses have gone to a better place, and I am currently half blind.  It is sucking so much! I feel as if a part of my soul has left.  I miss them.  I feel like I've been drugged, I can't walk straight, when I do it looks like I'm drunk, my face feels bare, I have a constant headache, I'm sensitive to light and my eyes hurt.  & I don't have an optometrist appointment until Wednesday!  I don't think I'll be able to make it, honestly.  I can still wear my old glasses, or whats left of them I should say, (there are no arms) but it feels like I have cataracts or a very sever astigmatism.  I hate it.  I'm not even halfway through the day and I have to wait until Wednesday!  How am I going to recognize people?  I can see 4.5 feet in front of me exactly.  That's it.  
I will be temporarily dead for the next 3.8632 days.
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[	Tags	|	aragon ballroom, chicago, concert, disturbed, fashion bomb, flyleaf, q101, stone sour, twisted 13	]
[	Location	|	Hell	]
[	Mood	|	ache-y	]
[	Music	|	Snoop Dogg - Drop It Like It's Hot	]

yo! penis!
whats up? yeah so tonight was a-fucking-mazing, ight?
I missed Flyleaf though, *emo tear* just kidding! They're not that great anyway. I got there when Stone Sour just started playing their first song, 30/30.150, I ran straight towards the left side of the stage like my life was depending on it & snaked my way through to the front-ish. This is what the stage looks like... only that's The Fray on stage in that picture I stole from so girl on Photobucket. Here I'll draw a diagram of The Aragon Ballroom for you. The pink dot is me, the lime green dot is my mom, the red stuff is the security, the gray stuff are the other people, and the purple dot is Val from Fashion Bomb. I don't know why he was there but he was looking hot! Oh, & don't make fun of the way I draw. it was on the computer 'ight? I lost my glasses in the middle of when Stone Sour was playing but I didn't notice because I was having too much fun. Anyway, after Stone Sour was done playing, the security guards were given two set lists to give to the people, and guess who got one? ME! Yup, y'know why? cause I was the only girl by the guard rail on that side. =] Oh, & me and this really hot guy with dreads that looked like he was Bob Marley reincarnated looked at the pictures it took. They were on my camera phone though so they weren't the best.

( You have been warned... )

So after that, we waited for a bunch of minutes until... DISTURBED! Yes... it was awesome. I have the hots for the guitarist, Dan Donegan, soooo fine! Funny story actually, they were playing 'Stricken' and Dan was playing right in front of me, so I made the devil horns, put them under my chin and stuck my tongue out. hahaha, he definatly saw it because I saw his mouth half-drop, He tried throwing a pic to me but threw it too hard the first time, then he tried again but the asshole next to me, reached out in front of me and just grabbed it!! I was furious!! I wanted to punch him in the face!!! But, alas, the security guards were, again, right in front of me also and would've broken it up & I would've been pulled out. Damn fuckers. But see then after the show, I asked my mom "Hey mom, can we go backstage now?" And now she "claims" that Doogy Thompson aparently doesn't manage their band, he manages Fall Out Boy's, I'm like what the fuck mom, come on I'm smarter than that!! I've known this for the most of my life the fact that he manages Disturbed and not FOB's and that your friends with him. I have a feeling she didn't want me to go back there because she probably though I was gonna hook up with one of the band members *cough, cough*Dan*cough, cough* because I have a tendency to have one night stands with band members, if not the whole band. Yes, yes, I said it. I know now I sound like a groupie slut, right? Yeah. Well, I'm done. Feel free to yell at me all you want. I enjoy constructive critizism. But anyway... So after we were out of the Aragon, we were walking back to the car, and people are out by the side/back of the Aragon, where the bands come out of, and there I see a familiar face, Val. He was handing out flyers for his band's new album "Devils to Some, Angels to Others." So I walked up and he handed me one and said, "Hey, nice leggins, babe." I was all smiley and like o.0 I got all shy and shit and was like, "Thanks..." really quite like. hahahaha, I'm such a loser!

[	Mood	|	sick	]
[	Music	|	Marilyn Manson - Coma White	]

Today was full of unproductiveness.
Lets see... First, I got into the cab and was half asleep, so I slept.  I slept pretty peacfully until my phone started blairning "Wings of A Butterfly" into my ear drums.  It was my mom: "Why the fuck arn't you at school?!  Kate just called me and told me that you're not there!  Whats going on?!  Is there something that you should tell me?!"  Scilence over came me.  Like it usually does when I am just waking up and someone is screaming at me.  I'm like "Mom I'm still in the cab-"  "What?!?!?!1"  "I said 'I'm still in the cab-"  "But why?!?! It's 9:32 and your not in school!!  Is there something going on I should know about?  Where are you?"  "Uhmmmm... Fuck, I don't know!  I just woke up!!!  It's all rainy and i can't see out these foggy windows all that well."  "Well you better look harder!" Honestly.  How the fuck can you make someone look harder?  Over the phone!  Aparently my cab driver was new and thought that I was going to Evanston, or "Afverstein" as he calls it.  Okay, I don't even know how to get to Evanston and then he wants me to direct him back to ENH!  I was all the way by Lyola Acadmy.  
Other than that, my day was good.  I didn't do anything in Pat's class though because my medicine hadn't kicked in yet.  But by Esther's class I was 'ight.  I felt like skipping lunch to go do more math.  Thats not like me at all.  Adderall is making me a different person.  Cool!  
Anyway, after school I prettied myself all up cause I was driving to go meet Evan at the bowling alley in Mundiline which is a 45 minute drive from my house all the way in Lake County past Buffalo Grove, Vernon Hills & Long Grove.  It was pretty cool.  We were really the only people at the place.   Heh, it felt kinda weird & really, really akward.  But it was a nice sort of akward, if there can be such a thing.  Last game he bowled a 142.  Better than I can do.  And, god, he looks so cute when he's bowling. ^u^  Not the point...  Tomorrow is Wednesday 13 Day!  Yay!  & Then the day after that is the Twisted 13 concert at the Aragon with Disturbed, Stone Sour & Flyleaf.  & then, on Saturday, me and Kristyn are going to the 313 Suspention Party.  It should be pretty fun.
Woooooooooh!!  Free liquor!!!!

[	Mood	|	tired	]
[	Music	|	AB-DOer comercials	]

Kay. So I'm sitting here in my kinda-sorta-but-not-really brother's room posting this because I am ridiculously bored and am about to blow my brains out from boredom.
So, I guess I'll just re-cap today then?
Right.
So, Anita spent the night last night, 'twas fun, then later me & her went over to my brother Ryan's apartment and we watched about 10 minutes of a Saw III bootleg & it sucked because it was so dark and you couldn't really make-out anything that was happening unless it was a pastel, which is highly unlikely to find in any Saw movie. Then after that, we took Anita home, & drove to Woodfield Mall to do some Christmas shopping.

( I got this for Logan )

( I got this for Evan )

( My Mom got me this )

Me, my mom and Ryan are going back tomorrow to do more shopping, though.
Best thing about today though, I got Jimmy John's =]
Oh! & I saw my friend Mary from our old CCD classes back in April, & we both flipped out & started hugged right in the middle of Hot Topic when we saw each other. It was fun. I had a good time. Oh my god that reminds me!!! Tonight, Bret Michaels from Poison was in Libertyville, the drug capitol of Illinois, for a show at Austin's Saloon & tickets were only $25!!!!!! My mom wouldn't let me go!!!!!!! I was as pissed as shit! But, then I made up for it by watching The 69 Eyes new video for 'Perfect Skin' ^{(which is a friggin wicked song by the way)} on EMI Jukebox & coloring my hair cotton candy pink. It looks exactly like that color. Too bad my camera is still being gaytarded ^{(my teacher came up with the word, don't ask me)} about everything and won't take pictures. Otherwise I would'a.

My body wants to go into sleep mode as of right now so I guess it would be best to let itself do that.

[	Mood	|	accomplished	]
[	Music	|	Motley Crue - Wild Side	]

Yo-Ho-Ho-Ho!
Arrg, I feel like pillaging and uncharted island on the Caribbean coastline!
Not the point.
I made 8 more Friends Only Banners. =]
So....
here they... are?
Yeah.
enjoi.
( take a ride on the wild side )

[	Location	|	Hell	]
[	Mood	|	in pain	]
[	Music	|	Children of Bodom - Are You Dead Yet?	]

Whoooooooooh!
So, last night my girlfriend Anita decided that we wanted matching piercings and since she already had her nose pierced of the same side I wanted it done and she's pierced quite a few people before, I let her pierce me. No pain at all. She used the actual stud to pierce my nose, too, which I have never seen anyone do before. I like it. Right now I'm just wearing a regular 18g earring in it until I can go to the mall and pick up some screws and studs. I've been home for an hour and my dad still hasn't noticed its there. Probably because the stud is red. Hooray for red-star earring studs!

( la picture-esqu! )

"Enemy, take a one good look at me. Eradicate what you'll always be. tainted flesh, polluted soul through a mirror I behold..."

[	Mood	|	artistic	]
[	Music	|	Children of Bodom - Puch Me I Bleed	]

Hello, Beautiful...

[	Mood	|	content	]
[	Music	|	30 Second To Mars - From Yesterday	]

Ugh, i feel like ass.
I just spent 3 hours & $60 on my hair from 8-11 in the morning. And god, it itches so much! Now we have stupid fucking 15 inches of snow and I couldn't get my car out of the drive-way yesterday so i missed school. Shitty... yeah. & on top of that my camera's shutter won't open when i put it on picture mode. I know it's not stuck because I can move the shutter with my finger back and forth, but it's not recognizing that the shutters' open or anything. At least I'm getting a new camera for Christmas. I hate the concept holiday, but I like the fact that you get to give and receive gifts. I'm getting this for Ryan but, shhh! It's a secret! It's more like a "I'm sorry" gift than anything really. 
Yup.
This is the camera I'm getting. It's beautiful, right? Yeah. I know.
It's a Kodak v705 with 5x optical, 10x total, dual lens technology, image stabilized movie mode, & a rechargeable battery! I'm so excited, and I'm getting it in black!


 

[	Location	|	Hell	]
[	Mood	|	crappy	]
[	Music	|	Nekrogoblikon - Goblins Ahoy	]

Hey guys!
Long time no talk, eh? Well, my internet at my Dad's house was down for about hours or so and I couldn't get on, & at my Mom's house, we just got a new computer and the connection sucks & doesn't let me onto LJ. So, yeah. Not much has changed. My school made me and Evan break-up. Yeah, the fucking school. I'm thinking the same thing too, wtf? Right?! It sucks but, hey, what are you gonna do about it? In other words, I feel absolutely terrible for no apparent reason. I need to up my dosage on my PaxilCR again. Or at least I think it would be a good idea. Whatever...

[	Mood	|	sleepy	]
[	Music	|	Fast Times At Richmont High in the background	]

Wow.
New computer.
un-Holy shit, this is awsome,
and wicked fast.
It has that new dual core Intel shit that lets you do more things at once.
I can't wait untill I get Adobe Photoshop for Christmas, though.
That is gonna be the shit.
In other news....
I'm going to this tomorrow.
Great, right?
Wrong.
"asshole," or "cyclopse" as I prefer, is going to be there.
Yeah, can we say "confrontation?"
Grimm Jim is going to have to come and bail me out.
Or B-Don.
Sunday's = always the worst.

[

Mood

|

full

]

i am
stuffed
to the fucking gills!
too many masher taytties,
but now i get to try out my aunts new AB lounge XL!
yay-ful-nss!

[	Mood	|	crazy	]
[	Music	|	Motley Crue - Shout At The Devil	]

My Christmas List...



( click here to view )

[	Mood	|	horny	]
[	Music	|	The 69 Eyes	]

YOU CAN'T KEEP ME WAITING FOREVER, BABY
(WHO'S IN THE PERFECT SKIN?)
IT'S GETTING HOT, WHO'S GONNA RESCUE ME?


YOU'VE GOT THE PERFECT SKIN,
WITH A DEVILS GRIN,
PERFECT SKIN.

[	Location	|	Hell	]
[	Mood	|	content	]
[	Music	|	Peppermint Creeps - Just Another Day	]

Woooh!
I just got done convincing my dad to buy me this shweet-ass Darkthrone t-shirt off of e-bay
"Transylvanian 'Munchies'" Mother Fucker!

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[	Location	|	Hell	]
[	Mood	|	so in love	]
[	Music	|	Peppermint Creeps - Heartbleed	]

i miss him!
I can't stop thinking about him.
I don't want him to be this far away from me.
Over 2,000 miles is too far to be apart from someone you love.
I can hear his voice saying my name.
I can see his face in my mind.
I'm wearing his bands' t-shirt.
Listening to their album.
Haven't seen him in 6 months.
God, the only thing I want to do is just hold him and never let go.
I don't think I've ever wanted to be with someone more in my life than him.
& the law says "it's wrong."
Fuck the laws.
Fuck the rules,
Guidlines & expectations.
I love that man to death.
Nothing can change that.
Nothing.

[	Location	|	Hellhole	]
[	Mood	|	crampy	]
[	Music	|	Nickelback - Favorite Damn Disease	]

So I've been thinking, I want a new hairstyle.
Maybe black, atomic pink, & blonde.
Yeah, that sounds good.
Maybe liiike...
( these colors )
but
( this cut )

so, yay? nay?
tell me what you think.

I like your pants around your feet. & I like the dirt thats on your knees...

[	Location	|	Hell	]
[	Mood	|	blank	]
[	Music	|	Cradle of Filth - Rise of The Pentagram	]

One dark afternoon,
Like a shadow I flew,
Through the rain that fell sick with lament.

To this house of incest,
For when we undressed,
Blasphemies against Venus were rent.

Though her sister removed,
Her white body approved,
The barade of my heavenly quests.

Yet, all tongues are not true,
Some are forked or askew,
Like an uncivil serpent’s at best.

For ousted from Eden,
I fausted all reason,
Hook in mouth like Saint Peter Pan.

To horned fairy groves,
And hot virgin coves,
Where in the promiscuous swam.

I elected lovers, 
and rejected others,
Mathistrises that don’t give a damn.

But for those that still do,
My deep interest grew,
The rise of the true pentagram!